tap tap

i like when things start to work out. i'm just happy today bc things started off so fucked up but all i had to do was get out of bed, make some calls, do my nails while watching "penelope" with vanessa in the middle of the day, and now things are exponentially better and i can breathe a sigh of relief. i just have to stay posi. this all sounds real gay, but i realized that little things really make a diff. gotta work.

i hate the phrase "what's on tap for today/tonight/this weekend?"

CREAM

i figured enough time has passed that i can start writing in this again. everyone has forgotten about it since i stopped updating. not that anyone was reading it before anyway. but anyway, i just feel like writing right now because it's late and i want to do work but i always feel better about moving forward with work after i've expressed myself somehow, to no one.

my fingers hurt because all i have been doing all night is practicing guitar so that elijah can be proud of me. i love playing music with him but he is so good and fast and i can barely keep up so i practiced alone tonight and came up with some awesome new riffs for our song.

i have been so depressed lately, mostly about money. god, i can't wait till i get all my shit together. i have a new job but i am so delinquent on all my bills and i am just basically fucked right now for the next couple of months or however long it takes me to get caught up. with runway season going on, plus a recent trip to barneys i am finally starting to remember that i can use my love of designer clothing as a motivator. that sounds stupid but it's totally dumb to be working in the "fashion" field but being completely unable to shop. it's not conducive to staying up on the scene in general. i just see a pair of tough black boots and want to die bc i can't have them and then i just don't want to look at anything at all.

i dunno things will improve soon, i know, i just have to stay posi. i feel so weird about this show on saturday, i just feel like my luck has been so shitty and everything's gonna get fucked. i just want a nice man to take care of me.

<3

these are things i love right now.

i found these miniature roses at whole foods and now they are my favourite flower. the cat lamp was given to me by my boss after a shoot. he thought it was so kitschy and weird but i loved it.

i've discovered the secret to a great life. work for 2 weeks, break for 2 weeks, and so on and so on. after an extremely busy couple of weeks, i finally got to clean my apt and do laundry for the first time in a whole month. last night i had margaritas and then fell asleep in my clothes. i woke up early and finished "south of the border, west of the sun" and went out and got coffee and groceries. i just finished breakfast which was yogurt with blueberries and honey. now i will spend the day catching up on my writing, and perhaps i will hop down to echo park later and skip stones.

the past couple of days have been like autumn in may here is LA. i love everything about life right now.

Rosemary and cornmeal cake

15 min meal

Mobile blogging from lax. Why are people always dressed so fucked up at airports? I hate grumpy old white couples. Ill never be one. My flight is delayed...as always! I could be cha cha-ing tonight.

Simple pleasures

food, comps

i'm going to be annoying and do a real, non-picture post. the main thing on my mind right now is desert. i had a mediocre egg salad sandwich from whole foods, and they did not have my favourite kind of kombucha, so now i'm a bit grouchy and just want something sweet to eat. i also can't stop wondering if i have ricotta cheese in my fridge (i'm not home). i just learned how to make scones, and now i want to make a scone version of these lemon-ricotta muffins i made before. did you know they have really cheap spices and things at target? they don't have much of a selection, but i did get some nutmeg and pure almond extract for like 2 bucks a pop. it's more than twice that at the grocery store! i'm almost to the point where i don't even have to leave my house to get anything if i want to bake. i really have food on my mind a lot. i'm trying to figure out what i should have for lunch tomorrow, on my last day at work! it's going to be rad. i keep fantasizing about going to whole foods and picking up so much delicious vegetarian food, but i haven't had any time to grocery shop this past week. anyway, i want to make everyone a compilation of la music so everyone will want to move here. send me your addresses.

Traffic but its pretty

Bro town usa!

Most magical tv

A man gave me a lovely cake from paris baguette

Pixelated porn

"A long night full of magic!"

Art night

health!

i am so blown away right now after seeing health. best live band! their energy was unrelenting and unparallelled! i seriously have not seen that much chemistry in a band like, ever. and they are incredibly tight as far as their performance, it was unbelieveable. i usually get so so bored at shows. i roll my eyes at the prospect of "one more song". but for the first time ever i could have watched a band play all night. it was seriously mind-blowing!